Angel of Hope

“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without words and never stops at all” ~Emily Dickenson.

I will never forget the night I went to visit my mom in the hospital while she had cancer. A stranger came up to me in the hallway and handed me a beautiful journal that said Hope. She said she wanted me to have it. Not knowing at the time that this journal would get me through many long nights of grief after the loss of my mother.

Hope was one of my moms favorite words and it became her motto late in life. She liked to use the word to inspire friends, family and coworkers. It was only natural that when I made her funeral remembrance pamphlet for family and friends that I put the word Hope on the front cover.

One night I was looking through the journal and found the Emily Dickenson poem above. It reminded me of my mom and I put it in her remembrance pamphlet as well. I thanked the kind stranger again in my heart. I never saw this person again but I still treasure the journal and the sentiment. Perhaps she was a guardian angel who knew I would need this comfort after such a great loss.

I think everyone has an angel of Hope. A guardian angel that never lets us give up whether it be our dreams, our faith or our will to keep going no matter what is happening in our lives.

I started to make this angel and noticed it resembled my mother. I wasn’t trying to purposely paint my mother and honestly not sure I could paint a portrait as this is only the second face I’ve ever painted. Oddly enough it kept reminding me of my mom. Only it was “chemo” mom. Before this angel had hair it looked like my mom after she shaved her head because the chemotherapy was making her hair fall out. I don’t think it looks like her as much as I wasn’t able to duplicate her hair style but I decided to make her the angel of hope in my moms honor.

I am finally coming to terms with the loss of my mother. After she died I felt like my life ended as well. I suppose that would be normal for most daughters especially if their mother was one of their best friends but I don’t think it should still be the case six years later. For many years after my mom died I really did feel like my life was over.

I have always been very sensitive to other peoples energy and emotions. Being in loud, busy environments is becoming more and more challenging. Its even difficult to watch the news with the overload of negative stories and headlines. Its not uncommon for me to come home from a simple trip to the grocery store totally exhausted to the point where I have to lie down. I can even pick up other peoples energy via phone conversations that again require rest on my part to recover. Its also not uncommon for me to be approached by total strangers who poor their heart out to me in intimate detail. These conversations depending on their tone may leave me drained and tense. As a veterinarian, its also becoming ever more difficult to work in extremely busy clinics or hospitals where I have to go from patient to patient every 20 minutes or so with no time to recover in between. I am even becoming more sensitive to the animals but that’s another blog!

I have finally realized this past year that I am a highly sensitive/empathic person. I truly believe that while living in my moms house, I have picked up on her residual feelings of despair knowing that her life was over. I have been feeling like my life was over not because that is truly how I feel but because I was confusing my mothers emotions for my own. Its a relief to finally realize this so now I can cleanse the house and myself of this energy. Its also very sad to know just how my mom felt.

I am now learning how to protect my sensitive soul and energy. I know my mom is lovingly watching over me and is no longer suffering. As am I.

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La luna bella

Her soul had a long standing relationship with the moon.

The moon lovingly smiled and laughed as she finally embraced her authentic self. It had been shining its brilliant light upon her soul night after night. Hoping she would let go of all that no longer served her and remember the wisdom she carried deep within.

“Nice to see you lightworker, I was wondering when you were going to show up. Its time to shine your light upon the world”, said the moon.

After this night, she never looked back, finally embracing her beauty, power and wisdom. “I remember my magic!” ,she exclaimed. “Good” said the moon. “You are a powerful lightworker my dear. Its time to start living your life purpose. Get to work lightworker!” And so she did…………..

sun loves the moon

Sweet Soul….Angel of Whispers

What an exciting day my friends. After taking my leap of faith, today I received my official drskippyart business cards. I also confirmed my first art event! I will have a booth next month at a local event in North Scottsdale. I  will be displaying my art which will also be available for purchase. I am feeling very blessed and excited.

Below is the progress I have been making on my first angel. She’s not quite done but I just love the way she is emerging.

Be gentle with your hearts, sweet souls………..

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Angel of Whispers….

Hello my friends.

I wanted to share with you my first face! This is my “Angel of Whispers”. She is a work in progress from lesson 1 in my Sprit Wings art class. I love using the Sennelier oil pastels that were used to paint her face. They are so soft and velvety. Just like butter! I cant wait for lesson two to see how she progresses.

Would love to hear how everyone else likes using oil pastels. I tried using them again to make a butterfly on a mixed media canvas but they didn’t work as well for me as the face. I only have a few colors though. I cant wait to get a complete set in the wood case!

My “Angel of Whispers” is a gentle soul with a lot of wisdom behind those kind eyes. She has been nudging me to take steps towards a fulfilling career and life that makes my heart sing. If you were to paint an angel what kind of angel would you make and why? Please comment below. Would love to hear from you.

Angel of Courage

Angel of Whispers

Leap of Faith

I have always had an inclination to make art. For more years than I can remember I have had internal nudges urging me to take art classes. It always seemed like I didn’t have time in my schedule with work, school, caring for my son, etc. Yet no matter how busy my life appeared to be the nudges never went away. In fact they became stronger and stronger.

I have always enjoyed being creative and dabbling in multiple creative projects throughout the years with my family. My mom and I spent countless hours making painted molded candy, Christmas ornaments and much more. I grew up watching both of my grandfathers express themselves creatively via several different mediums such as stained glass, wood and paint. My grandmother sewed and made beautiful needlepoint and I even had an aunt who was a very talented painter.

Being the sole provider for my family has made making time to follow my hearts whispers challenging. I have learned that these whispers and nudges can no longer be ignored as they are there for a very important reason. I have decided that it is these internal nudges that in fact lead us to the life we are meant to live. They lead us to our soul purpose, fulfill our dreams of a life of joy and are truly the answers to our prays.

This April I was finally able to dive into an art class thanks to the magic of the online forum. I am so grateful that such talented artists like Kelly Rae Roberts share their craft now in online courses. I have been creating nonstop since and am so grateful.

With that being said I am officially taking a leap of faith towards living a creative life. One that feeds my soul, makes my heart sing, and brings joy to me and all those around me. It is with faith that this post is my first post from my official drskippyart.com website.

I hope you continue to follow me on my journey as I post about art, life and how art continues to help me heal my heart and live my life purpose. I hope everyone continues to live the life of their dreams with full faith that it is possible.

Continue to have faith my friends. Feel it, love it, live it. What leaps of faith will you be taking in your life today? Please share with us in the comment section. Let us leap together.

FAITH

The Art of Self Love

Among the many things I have learned to let go of during this past Mercury in Retrograde is forcing things to happen. I have decided to let go of anything and everything that no longer positively serves me.  If I have to force it then its not the right path for me. If it does not bring me complete and utter joy then I release it with full faith that the universe will direct me to something better.

Last year for the first time in my life I had a friend end our friendship because I wasn’t living up to her expectations. I don’t pretend to be the perfect friend or the perfect anything. I do the best I can under the circumstances of the moment. I recently had the opportunity to try to prove my worth of friendship to this person again. Not this time. I AM worthy of unconditional love. I AM worthy of unconditional friendship. I AM WORTHY and I will not settle for anything less. If I have to prove my worth to someone else then they are not worthy of being a part of MY life.

Thank you Mercury for helping me release that which no longer serves me positively and allow me to unconditionally love myself.

Love beagle